Here I Am, Send Me

Here I Am, Send Me

My thoughts in my walk with Christ

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• In The Year…
  Come with me and let’s rewind the clock back a little. The year is 2021. Winter is just about to come to an end and Spring is right around the corner. My wife and I are caring for my mother due to dementia seemingly around the clock. It was hard…no one will ever know the… Read more: In The Year…
• A Fall From Grace
  Apostasy (“defection, revolt”) is the formal disaffiliation from, abandonment of, or renunciation of a religion by a person. -Wikipedia Pretty cut and dry right? This is how the world defines what apostasy is. Someone who belongs to a faith or group and then decides, by their own free will, to turn away and remove themselves… Read more: A Fall From Grace
• Into The Dark
  And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him. By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the… Read more: Into The Dark
• Who Is The Greatest?
  Why do we have this…? After the Lord had said these things to Job, He said to Eliphaz the Temanite, “I am angry with you and your two friends, because you have not spoken the truth about me, as my servant Job has. So now take seven bulls and seven rams and go to my… Read more: Who Is The Greatest?
• Daily Self Reminder # Quintillion
  If God says women are the weaker vessel this means you’re weak too!!!
• The Light
  What is Light? Light is life Light is warm The Light removes darkness The Light is a bright beacon to reveal the way The Lights’ illuminating nature will always reveal But sometimes I don’t want The Light I’d rather stay unseen so I hide Hoping The Light won’t find me In my nakedness I “clothe”… Read more: The Light
• Anything Less Is A Cult
  You love righteousness and hate wickedness; therefore God, your God, has set you above your companion by anointing you with the oil of joy. (Psalm 45:7) Recently I began a friendship with a man at a park I frequent who, from outward appearances, seemed to be Christian…a genuine follower of Jesus Christ. We both share… Read more: Anything Less Is A Cult
• Under The Fig Tree
  When Jesus saw Nathanael approaching, He said of him, “Here truly is an Israelite in whom there is no deceit.” “How do you know me?” Nathanael asked. Jesus answered, “I saw you while you were still under the fig tree before Philip called you.” Then Nathanael declared, “Rabbi, you are the Son of God; you… Read more: Under The Fig Tree
• He Sees
  And a certain servant girl, seeing him as he sat by the fire, looked intently at him and said, “This man was also with Him.” But he denied Him, saying, #1 “Woman, I do not know Him.” And after a little while another saw him and said, “You also are of them.” But Peter said,… Read more: He Sees
• The Bad News According To Jesus Christ
  As He was setting out on a journey, a man ran up to Him and knelt before Him, and asked Him, “Good Teacher, what shall I do so that I may inherit eternal life?” But Jesus said to him, “Why do you call Me good? No one is good except God alone. You know the… Read more: The Bad News According To Jesus Christ
• A Promise
  He who overcomes shall be clothed in white garments, and I will not blot out his name from the Book of Life; but I will confess his name before My Father and before His angels. (Revelation 3:5) This passage does not reveal that Jesus is watching and waiting for us to “mess up”, and then… Read more: A Promise
• The Real McCoy
  We know that the law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin. I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the… Read more: The Real McCoy
• Once Lost Always Lost
  For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted the heavenly gift, and have become partakers of the Holy Spirit, and have tasted the good word of God and the powers of the age to come, if they fall away, to renew them again to repentance, since they crucify again for… Read more: Once Lost Always Lost
• Night Night
  Everyday I think of you I think of all of the memories we made When I was little it was me and you We did everything together You took very good care of me You made sure I had everything I needed and more You loved me intensely I know you did I loved you… Read more: Night Night
• Freedom
  Executive MansionWashington, Nov. 21, 1864. Dear Madam, I have been shown in the files of the War Department a statement of the Adjutant General of Massachusetts that you are the mother of five sons who have died gloriously on the field of battle. I feel how weak and fruitless must be any word of mine… Read more: Freedom
• A Shadow
  It follows me everywhere I go It’s empty and in it is darkness It never goes away It chases me no matter how hard I run It’s always there at my side, behind me, or right in front of my eyes It mimics everything I do It knows everything about me It’s me but not… Read more: A Shadow
• The Intelligent Fool
  For the wisdom of this world is folly with God. For it is written, “He catches the wise in their craftiness.” (1 Corinthians 3:19) There’s one characteristic in all of us The Bible explicitly warns us to turn away from and subdue over and over again… how “smart” we think we are. We all have… Read more: The Intelligent Fool
• A Gentle Whisper
  Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. (1 Peter 5:8) Distractions…there are many in this world. It seems the moment we wake up every day until the moment we go back to sleep there are distractions that keep us from God.… Read more: A Gentle Whisper
• The World Lies To You
  Lie: “You can’t love someone else until you learn to love yourself.” Truth: “You can’t love someone else until you learn to die to yourself.” Lie: “God helps those who help themselves.” Truth: “God helps those who can’t help themselves.” Lie: “No good deed goes unpunished.” Truth: “No good deed goes punished.” Lie: “Love is… Read more: The World Lies To You
• Sacrificial Love
  You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your Father in Heaven. He causes his sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the… Read more: Sacrificial Love
• Karma
  He does not treat us as our sins deserve or repay us according to our iniquities.For as high as the heavens are above the earth, so great is His love for those who fear him; (Psalm 103:10-11) A thousand years before the birth of Christ this was written by a man who was supposed to… Read more: Karma
• The Last Trumpet
  Listen, I tell you a mystery: We will not all sleep, but we will all be changed in a flash, in the twinkling of an eye, at the “last trumpet”. For the trumpet will sound, the dead will be raised imperishable, and we will be changed. (1 Corinthians 15:51-52) Years ago shortly after I gave… Read more: The Last Trumpet
• Agents of Chaos
  The Son is the image of the invisible God, the firstborn over all creation. For in him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things have been created through him and for him. He is before all things, and in… Read more: Agents of Chaos
• Dad
  I miss you Dad I think I always will I know you suffered your entire life I know because I was with you and I saw I never told you how much I love you while you were here For that I feel ashamed If it’s possible I want you to know I love you… Read more: Dad
• Air
  Not that we dare to classify or compare ourselves with some of those who are commending themselves. But when they measure themselves by one another and compare themselves with one another, they are without understanding. (2 Corinthians 10:12) If you were a boy growing up in the 80’s and 90’s like me then there’s a… Read more: Air
• Free Range and Organic
  Now about food sacrificed to idols: We know that “We all possess knowledge.” But knowledge puffs up while love builds up. Those who think they know something do not yet know as they ought to know. But whoever loves God is known by God. (1 Corinthians 8:1-3) If you’re someone like me then you enjoy… Read more: Free Range and Organic
• Humiliation
  But we have an altar where even the priests who serve in the place of worship have no right to eat. After the high priest offers the blood of animals as a sin offering, the bodies of those animals are burned outside the camp. Jesus himself suffered outside the city gate, so his blood would… Read more: Humiliation
• What If…?
  What if Jesus described the timing of the rapture of the church in great detail as He did His second coming? Would I stay fervently faithful? Would I still have a sense of urgency in my faith? Would I put my desire for “life events” ahead of my desire to be with Christ? Personally speaking,… Read more: What If…?
• He Says A Little Prayer For You
  In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will… Read more: He Says A Little Prayer For You
• Know Thine Enemy
  You belong to your father, the Devil, and you want to carry out your father’s desires. He was a murderer from the beginning, not holding to the truth, for there is no truth in him. When he lies, he speaks his native language, for he is a liar and the father of lies. (John 8:44)… Read more: Know Thine Enemy
• For Your Eyes Only
  But if you fail to do this, you will be sinning against the Lord; and you may be sure that your sin will find you out. (Numbers 32:23) What is “private sin?” It’s something done away from the public eye that only you know about, and it’s a secret. You hide it from your spouse,… Read more: For Your Eyes Only
• The 1st Commandment
  Yoga: a Hindu “theistic” (belief in at least one god or many gods) philosophy teaching the suppression of all activity of body, mind, and will in order that the self may realize its distinction from them and attain liberation through bodily positions designed to worship Hindu gods. A High Place: A high place was a… Read more: The 1st Commandment
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  “God did not give us the book of Revelation so we would build bomb shelters in the backyard. He gave us the book so we’d build bigger dining tables to invite people over to tell them about Jesus.” – Anonymous
• Koinonia
  If we walk in the light as He is in the light, we have fellowship (koinonia) with one another, and the blood of Jesus Christ His Son cleanses us from all sin. (1 John 1:7) “Koinonia” is a Greek word that is typically translated to “fellowship” or “companionship”, but to the Christian it’s a word… Read more: Koinonia
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• I’m A Loser
  Though I myself have reason for confidence in the flesh also. If anyone else thinks he has reason for confidence in the flesh, I have more: mastered the fundamentals of the law of attraction, in the heart of San Francisco, a New Ager of New Agers; as to the laws of attraction, a Teacher; as… Read more: I’m A Loser
• The Stereotype
  The word of the Lord came to Jonah son of Amittai: “Go to the great city of Nineveh and preach against it, because its wickedness has come up before me.”But Jonah ran away from the Lord and headed for Tarshish. He went down to Joppa, where he found a ship bound for that port. After… Read more: The Stereotype
• The Sneak Peek
  After this, the word of the Lord came to Abram in a vision: “Do not be afraid, Abram. I am your shield, your very great reward.” But Abram said, “Sovereign Lord, what can you give me since I remain childless and the one who will inherit my estate is Eliezer of Damascus?” And Abram said,… Read more: The Sneak Peek
• Never
  Can you measure the heavens? Can you explore the depths of the earth?That’s how hard it would be for me to reject Israel forever, even though they have sinned. I, the Lord, have spoken. (Jeremiah 31:37-39) Can we measure the universe? No. According to the scientific world the universe is always expanding. Have we physically… Read more: Never
• Synopsis of Ruth:
  A man from Bethlehem takes a gentile as his bride for the purpose of redemption.
• Word Play
  Adam-Hebrew translation = “Man” Seth-Hebrew translation = “Appointed” Enosh-Hebrew translation = “Mortal” Kenan-Hebrew translation = “Sorrow” Mahalalel-Hebrew translation = “Blessed God” Jared-Hebrew translation = “Shall come down” Enoch-Hebrew translation = “Teaching” Methuselah-Hebrew translation = “Death brings” Lamech-Hebrew translation = “Despairing” Noah-Hebrew translation = “Rest” MAN APPOINTED MORTAL SORROW BLESSED GOD SHALL COME DOWN TEACHING DEATH… Read more: Word Play
• The Crimson Worm
  The Hebrew translation for “crimson worm” is the word “towla”. When the crimson worm is ready to lay its eggs, which is an event that happens only once in its life, it climbs up a tree and attaches itself to it. With its body attached to the wooden tree, a hard crimson shell forms. The… Read more: The Crimson Worm
• Replacement Theology
  “The Remnant Of Israel”: I ask then: Did God reject his people? By no means! I am an Israelite myself, a descendant of Abraham, from the tribe of Benjamin. God did not reject his people, whom he foreknew. Don’t you know what Scripture says in the passage about Elijah—how he appealed to God against Israel:… Read more: Replacement Theology
• When Enough Is Enough
  Give to the one who asks you and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you. (Matthew 5:42) It’s blatantly obvious Jesus calls all of His children to help those in need, but when does this “helping” get to the point where we are being taken advantage of? In conjunction,… Read more: When Enough Is Enough
• Some Of Us Were Raised In Legalistic Homes Or Legalistic Churches And This Does Not Foster A Love For One Another…It Fosters A Critical Eye
• Once Saved Always Saved
  “Yet there are some of you who do not believe.” For Jesus had known from the beginning which of them did not believe and who would betray him. He went on to say, “This is why I told you that no one can come to me unless the Father has enabled them.” From this time… Read more: Once Saved Always Saved
• Isaiah Unfinished
  And he came to Nazareth, where he had been brought up. And as was his custom, he went to the synagogue on the Sabbath day, and he stood up to read. And the scroll of the prophet Isaiah was given to him. He unrolled the scroll and found the place where it was written, “The… Read more: Isaiah Unfinished
• The Sabbath
  Someone from my past: “Oh you’re a Christian now? So do you follow all the rules then like following the Sabbath?” Me: “Nope.” Someone from my past: “Why not?” Me: “Because I’m a Christian”.
• The One Thing I Deserve
  What causes quarrels and what causes fights among you? Is it not this, that your passions are at war within you? You desire and do not have, so you murder. You covet and cannot obtain, so you fight and quarrel. You do not have, because you do not ask. You ask and do not receive,… Read more: The One Thing I Deserve
• Struggle #1
  I don’t know about you Christian, but here’s one fundamental of The Way that I struggle with immensely… Heavenly rewards are obtained through self sacrifice and not through self defense. There are times when I feel as if the whole world is tugging at me. Someone asks for this, or someone needs that. I can… Read more: Struggle #1
• Fear
  When he arrived at the other side in the region of the Gadarenes, two demon-possessed men coming from the tombs met him. They were so violent that no one could pass that way. “What do you want with us, Son of God?” they shouted. “Have you come here to torture us before the appointed time?”… Read more: Fear
• “Integrity is doing the right thing, even when no one is watching.” – C. S. Lewis
• The Order Of Melchizedek
  And the king of Sodom went out to meet him after his return from the slaughter of Chedorlaomer, and of the kings that were with him, at the valley of Shaveh, which is the king’s dale. And Melchizedek king of Salem brought forth bread and wine: and he was the priest of the most high… Read more: The Order Of Melchizedek
• A Branch
  A shoot will come up from the stump of Jesse; from his roots a Branch will bear fruit. (Isaiah 11:1) The days are coming, declares the Lord, “when I will raise up for David a righteous Branch, a King who will reign wisely and do what is just and right in the land. In his… Read more: A Branch
• God’s Grace Is Sufficient
  Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. (2 Corinthians 12:8-9) Even… Read more: God’s Grace Is Sufficient
• Let You Go
  You gave me a life even though you did not give me life. When do I let you go? I can still remember how you held me until I fell asleep at night and how safe it made me feel. When do I let you go? I remember singing songs together in the car when… Read more: Let You Go
• Character Traits
  Character trait: A loser Like all losers, this person judges and criticizes all who they can for self-promotion. Character trait: A winner A person who has a burning desire to learn and master the grace and mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ more than any of the other divine attributes.
• To Whom It May Concern (A Copy)
  HELLO PLEASE READ…YOUR LIFE DEPENDS ON IT. Let me just start by telling you that I know things may seem hopeless right now and I know whatever I am about to say may not have much affect or influence on you, but please, I implore you to give me just a few minutes of your… Read more: To Whom It May Concern (A Copy)
• The Man Who Led Judah Into The Babylonian Captivity
  In the fourteenth year of King Hezekiah’s reign, Sennacherib king of Assyria attacked all the fortified cities of Judah and captured them. So Hezekiah king of Judah sent this message to the king of Assyria at Lachish: “I have done wrong. Withdraw from me, and I will pay whatever you demand of me.” The king… Read more: The Man Who Led Judah Into The Babylonian Captivity
• The Wheat and the Tares
  Another parable He put forth to them, saying: “The kingdom of heaven is like a man who sowed good seed in his field; but while men slept, his enemy came and sowed tares among the wheat and went his way. But when the grain had sprouted and produced a crop, then the tares also appeared.… Read more: The Wheat and the Tares
• The Angel Of The Lord
  Now the angel of the Lord found her by a spring of water in the wilderness, by the spring on the way to Shur. He said, “Hagar, Sarai’s maid, where have you come from and where are you going?” And she said, “I am fleeing from the presence of my mistress Sarai.” (Genesis 16:7-8) In… Read more: The Angel Of The Lord
• Section of the Original Hippocratic Oath
  “I will use those dietary regimens which will benefit my patients according to my greatest ability and judgment, and I will do no harm or injustice to them. Neither will I administer a poison to anybody when asked to do so, nor will I suggest such a course. Similarly I will not give to a… Read more: Section of the Original Hippocratic Oath
• Helpmate
  Adam would be nothing without Eve She is the vessel in which humanity was conceived When evil perpetrated their marriage they fell together Never giving up hope that tomorrow would be better When the innocence was lost and corruption settled in They held each other tightly to overcome the wind. God did not intend for… Read more: Helpmate
• Fear Is A Universal Element But Faith and Fear Are Mutually Exclusive
• The Path To Leadership
  Moses: “Pardon your servant, Lord. Please send someone else.” Exodus 4:13 Gideon: “If now I have found favor in Your sight, then show me a sign that it is You who talk with me.” Judges 6:17 Jonah: Enough said David: So he asked Jesse, “Are these all the sons you have?” “There is still the… Read more: The Path To Leadership
• Untitled
  Before the beginning He knew she would be there When the two fell and were banished He knew she would be there When one brother offered his heart and the other offered a “work” He knew she would be there When The Sons Of God seduced women and sullied the gene pool He knew she… Read more: Untitled
• The Floating Ax Head (Passage Breakdown)
  And the sons of the prophets said to Elisha, “See now, the place where we dwell with you is too small for us. Please, let us go to the Jordan, and let every man take a beam from there, and let us make there a place where we may dwell.” So he answered, “Go.” Then… Read more: The Floating Ax Head (Passage Breakdown)
• An Intentional Coincidence Accidentally On Purpose
  The lot is cast into the lap, but its every decision is from the Lord. (Proverbs 16:33) Our lives are made up of moments big and small, but for some reason it seems we tend to only associate God with the big moments and chalk up the small ones to being just “random events”. You… Read more: An Intentional Coincidence Accidentally On Purpose
• God Hates Your Traditional Faith
  Your New Moon feasts and your appointed festivals. I hate with all my being. They have become a burden to me; I am weary of bearing them. (Isaiah 1:14) There are many instances in my life where I have to stop and ask myself… “What is it exactly that I’m doing?” I go to church…I… Read more: God Hates Your Traditional Faith
• The Rapture
  For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first. After that, we who are still alive and are left will be caught up together with them in the clouds to… Read more: The Rapture
• Prayer Interlude #1
  Lord give me strength to remain weak Lord let me do my best without feeling like I am the best Lord let me come in by walking away Lord let me be wise by remaining foolish Lord let me go up by keeping myself down Lord show me failure so I know success Lord keep… Read more: Prayer Interlude #1
• Itchy Ears
  Are you forcing your mind to constantly imagine being financially wealthy to “attract” or “manifest” money into your life? Do you have itchy ears? Are you looking to find God within science instead of finding science within God? Do you have itchy ears? Do you “put things out into the universe?” Do you have itchy… Read more: Itchy Ears
• In A Mirror, Darkly
  For now we see in a mirror, darkly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known. (1 Corinthians 13:12) If you’re like me then you remember the first time you read this passage you were absolutely dumbfounded as to what Paul was… Read more: In A Mirror, Darkly
• A Star Is Born
  Then the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found favor with God. And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bring forth a Son and shall call His name JESUS. (Luke 1: 30-31) Many believe Mary was an adolescent teenager when she gave birth to The Messiah. Picture… Read more: A Star Is Born
• The Law
  After this, Jesus, knowing that all things were now accomplished, that the Scripture might be fulfilled, said, “I thirst!” Now a vessel full of sour wine was sitting there; and they filled a sponge with sour wine, put it on hyssop, and put it to His mouth. So when Jesus had received the sour wine,… Read more: The Law